Hole In My Heart

All songs written by Joe Dickinson

Hole In My Heart

There's a hole in my heart

There's a big old empty space

I see the wall where I used to see your face

Hole in my heart

What a waste

There's a hole in my heart

And there's so much that I can see

All of these things that I should have done differently

Hole in my heart

Let it be

Didn't I try to love you

Didn't I try to care

Didn't I sleep

Didn't I weep

Beside you

There's a hole in my heart

And there's nothing anyone can say

I see the wall where I used to see your face

Hole in my heart

Go away

Hole in my heart

Go away

Hole in my heart

Go away

We Used To Live There

Howdy friend

You know I'm sorry that I didn't make it over last night

But you know what with the way things are man

Something just doesn't seem right

You're literally on the same street

And right now that's just a little too much for me to bear

We used to live there

I know I know I know I know I know I know I know

You're gonna tell me to get over it

That what doesn't kill me helps me grow

And I get that I do but right now

My hearts too numb to beat

Much less understand

All I can do is stare

We used to live there

It's funny 'case you used to live way down here man

Way down where the wild things are

But now you're living way up north

With white teeth and a brand new car

I try to tell myself that a place is just a place

That memories are in my mind

That the distribution of pain is not always fair

We used to live there

Going out tonight gonna do what I need to do

If I'm not back by the morning

Phone in a rescue crew

The wind while I wait to be whisked away

Blew a warning

From where I don't care

Right down through my hair

We used to live there

Alright time to face my fears

Whoa there is the one I'm pointing at

Gaze up at the darkened windows

Turn around shed a tear walk back

Life is beautiful

This I do declare

There's just so many facets

I'm finding it impossible to really care

We used to live there

My Flower

And even if you were standing here what would I say to you

It's like a wall went up and now I can't get through

Is there some kind of secret key that I can use

Or is the game already over, did I already lose

You were my flower

You were my angel in the dark

You were my power

You made my life fun instead of hard

Communication breakdown b-b-b-breaking me in two

And I can't accept what I don't believe is true

And in the back of my mind I guess I always knew

That when you left this is exactly what you would do

You were my flower

You were my angel in the dark

You were my power

You made my life fun instead of hard

The top of the peak provides a lovely view

The perfect place to contemplate how much you grew

But where will you go when they throw you back in the zoo

And all you have to hold you is the time that flew

You were my flower

You were my angel in the dark

You were my power

You made my life fun instead of hard

Dreamland

It makes me so sad

It makes me so mad

Every time I see you in Dreamland

During the day I can keep your memory at bay

But when the moon shines through

I come back home to you

In Dreamland

I wear a bulletproof vest

I travelled north south east and west

Looking for a place to go

Away from all I know

But it's no use you always show

Up in Dreamland

In Dreamland

I miss being hypnotized

By your unending eyes

It's driving me insane

You're gone but still remain

In Dreamland

It makes me so sad

It makes me so mad

Every time I see

Every time I see you in Dreamland

Why Bother

I'd write you a letter

Pour my heart on the page

You always just got me

We shared the same rage

But my pen has no prowess

Writing's no fun

Why bother

We're over

We're done

I'd call you on the phone

That's a sensible choice

We always were talking

I always did love your voice

But you don't even miss me

Talking's no fun

Why bother

We're over

We're done

I'd come out to see you

I'd spend my last dime

You could show me what you've seen

Give me a glimpse of your time

But who am I kidding

Visiting is no fun

Why bother

We're over

We're done

Why bother

We're over

We're done

Why bother

We're over

We're done

Black Cloud

There's a black cloud on the horizon

Getting closer

It'll be here soon

But I'm not scared

'Cause I'm holding your hand

And together we can

Face the black cloud

Rain rain rain

Thunder and lightning

There's a black cloud hanging over us

Weighing down on us

I can barely breathe

But I'm not scared

'Cause I'm holding your hand

And together we can

Face the black cloud

Rain rain rain

Thunder and lightning

There's a black cloud and it passed us by

There's a blue sky up above

But I'm a little bit scared

'Cause I can't find you anywhere

I think I might have lost you there

Inside the black cloud

Rain rain rain

Thunder and lightning

There's a black cloud over everything

I can't think of anything

That could make me smile

And I'm officially scared

'Cause I don't ever think you're coming back

I think you got lost in that

Black cloud

It's Amazing

It's amazing

Amazing to me

Isn't it funny how the time flies by

Like an airplane up in the sky

Until one day we all die

Who knows when it will happen

I'm not trying to be overly dark

But when I think of you it's kind of hard

Not to imagine us in your backyard

Sitting with your family

It's amazing

Amazing to me

We walked hand in hand to our last meal

Hand in hand back down the hill

I can see you in the rearview still

I can see you wave, it's like a Monet

I never set my expectations high

And surely now you can understand why

But to be honest you were my sky

That's why I know that it's falling

It's amazing

Amazing to me

I know there's nothing that I can say

I know that it'd be better if I went away

But I just can't walk blind into a brand new day

And pretend we didn't happen

So please listen if you're listening

Our time together wasn't some worthless fling

The essence was the essence of everything

Love

So I'm sorry if I can't let go

Or if I blame you for my feeling low

I'm worried that without you I will never again know

Love

It's amazing

Amazing to me

Amazing to see

Forgot About Me

There's a house up on a hill somewhere

Looking down upon a lake

With a whisp of the evening air

No temperature to take

We were sitting on the same page baby when we said goodbye

Promises were made that day

Promises to try

But you see when your world changed a little

You changed a lot

And you forgot about me

I've been sitting so long honey

I can't remember when I sat

The mail doesn't come until three

I'll probably get up for that

Looking back is most the most dangerous game

If I knew that you wouldn't be here I wouldn't have came

You see when your world changed a little

You changed a lot

And you forgot about me

You forgot about me

Let me tell you 'bout a party

'Bout a super gay way to pass the time

Look up your lover's name on the internet

See what you can find

I've been down before

I've been down for sure

I slept on the floor

And I didn't wanna sleep there anymore

You see when your world changed a little

You changed a lot

And you forgot about me

You forgot about me

The Meanest Thing

I've been waiting for your letter

I'll be waiting here forever

I don't think that I'm getting better

Don't think that I ever will

The way you set me free

Was the meanest thing

Anyone

Has ever done

Oh done to me

Behind a lack of motivation

Is underlying isolation

And the resulting desperation

Can't be cured by any pill

The way you set me free

Was the meanest thing

Anyone

Has ever done

Oh done to me

Time to time I think we all may tend

Not to treasure all the time we spend

Until the time comes for that time to end

And what little memories he have just spill

The way you set me free

Was the meanest thing

Anyone

Has ever done

Oh done to me

Escape Artist

Houdini taught you well

You slipped right out of your cell

You didn't even tell me you were leaving

Escape artist

You vanished

Gone without a trace

Shapeshifter in disguise

You slipped right out of my eyes

After filling me with lies of love

Escape artist

You vanished

Gone without a trace

So independent now

Don't need no one no how

But I remember you on the couch crying

Escape artist

You vanished

Gone without a trace

If I was a scientist

I would want to research this

Was it over before we kissed goodbye

Escape artist

You vanished

Gone without a trace

I'd like to know how you feel

What was fake and what was real

But a good magician never reveals her secrets

Escape artist

You vanished

Gone without a

Gone without a trace

Come Back

My heart my heart my heart my heart

Come back

My mind my mind my mind my mind

Come back

My will my will my will my will

Come back

My love my love my love my love

Come back

All I have

All I see

Without you it means nothing to me

Come back

My life my life my life my life

Come back

My life my life my life my life

Come back

All I have

All I see

Without you it means nothing to me

Come back, come back